Sunday, December 16, 2012
I have struggled with posting about pregnancy because sometimes, I just don't know how to accurately express it. It's amazing. It's exciting. It's a miracle. It sucks. It hurts. It needs to be over.
My feelings change about pregnancy as quickly as my mood swings come and go.
I love growing a baby. It's truly a miracle. I don't know how people can get pregnant and not believe in God. I am honestly doing nothing, HE is forming it. I had NOTHING to do with making her tiny little heart beat. I had nothing to do with creating all her little fingers and toes. It is all the Lord. Feeling her move inside my belly is a constant reminder that God created a precious little life inside my belly.
He has entrusted to us this amazing little girl. I can't see her but my whole life is affected by her. (Isn't that like God?)
She has taken over my body. I can't put my socks on. I feel like I am walking around with a tire around my waist. My veins are so visible it's weird. My feet are swollen. My back KILLS me daily. My engagement and wedding rings no longer fit. I still can't eat certain things. I still occasionally get nauseous (nothing like first to early second trimester though!) I am always tired. I am peeing every 10 minutes (and sometimes in my pants). I have a cracked rib. And I am starting to get stretch marks.
These things can suck, but it's so worth it. In March (or Feb if she comes early), we will get a baby girl, created in God's image, entrusted to us by the savior, to raise for HIS glory. We will fail at times, but she is ultimately His. And HE never fails. That's so comforting.
28 weeks! Here is a little journey through my 6+ months of pregnancy.